Dilwale – Exactly what people do in reality when they know you couldn’t fail

There is a positivity brigade upbeat in todays world asking one to live one's dreams and that fear of failure is root cause of all people living miserably and stifling innovation.

There is that famous question   "  What would you do if you couldn't fail? "
And you would think people would change the world and it will all be creative ,wonderful innovative work and what not.

Well if there is a perfect counter to this its Bollywood esp the directors
making the films of the Khans.Look they know they wont fail.
Despite whatever crap they churn out they will get a great opening and money is pretty much recovered. And yet it is this guaranteed success that serves up the lowest variety of even the formulaic stuff.

Dilwale is actually a perfect film made with everything except 'Dil'.

Its not like I went in with great expectation.
After over a year I went to a theater since I luckily managed to get tickets
and well growing up with Shahrukh and Kajol movies, that nostalgic feeling made me hope ok may be its  about seeing some nonsense movie just to see them together onscreen.

But just because you couldn't fail is this the crap you get served up.
Yeah some people like that too really I found as I observed in the Theater.
Even Johnny lever I  felt like was disinterestedly overacting .
As for Shahrukh snip off the scenes with kajol , all other shots he seemed
to be like – ok yeah what's the line – haan been there done that.

There is no limit to exploiting formula and chemistry of the lead actors.
Such lazy movie making…
Its been done by all Aaditya chopra, Sooraj barjatya and all but its like with every movie and 100 more crores they become more disinterested in the Dil part of moviemaking.

May be me and some of the old 90's generation are out of touch but honestly – after Sholay and DDLJ which dialogues have been reused like this in movies.

Our Creative young generation cannot even write some original dialogues
that can be recalled for few days. oh I forgot there are joke tracks ..

I know this is a pointless rant but even when you set the bar low…it seems things just seem to slip low.

The positive here-

• well with such nonsense also its clear none of new brigade have onscreen chemistry to match this 90's lead pair.
• And well I wrote a post – the movie made me feel so irritated for such a nice cast wasted !!

Few Movies after a long Hiatus

Last few months I myself seemed to be so hospital prone that I am hating it all but then I managed to watch a few movies ...

After a long time watched a movie I felt was brilliant.I mean scientific concepts put together in such beautiful emotional way in "Inside Out".

Of course as usual I guess it was more of a confirmation bias. Ive always had a thing against people who preached that stupid concept of "All is Well"
denying or trying to obscure the part  sadness , darkness and fears in shaping our personalities.

"The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it. It's our fear of the dark that casts our joy into the shadows." ― Brené Brown

Though the major part in the movie is for joy and sadness , the part anger , fear plays in building a persons life can never be ignored.

I was wondering how at a point in time my fear and disgust of handling calls , people and frustration turned to sheer anger and
 that anger worked more to drive away the fear than anything else to allow me to be more communicative verbally to people
 than I probably ever could by being calm and nice and proper I guess.

And then before that I had watched Piku. 

I've never related to a movie more closely.
Nearing a year since I lost my father it seemed like a recap of our life - the incidents matching so closely that  It literally had me and my sis eyeing each other more than the movie -
again wondering about the old adage. Life Imitates Art or Art Imitates life ?

He once accused our maid of drinking oil.

The almost exact description of doctors he gave as soon as he came out of ICU." lets go away dear .. they wont let you die here and they cant make you live."

And we had something in our home that too closely resembled that Chair.

But well the best part of the movie is now whenever my well wishers and dear friends start on their favorite advice
 " Why dont you drive your car. Its nothing that hard". I can tell them. Please watch the movie and understand
"why my subconscious has been so well trained by fear by my father that I consciously can never get over it"

His love for samosas and pakodas and the same exact words he used when we all who loved to travel wanted to go for a trip.
"Why go out ... All beaches are same.lets stay nicely at home relax , make pakodas and eat nah ?"

So many other small nuances . It was one of the most nostalgic movies for me.

It was hard to live with someone so dominating and yet with him gone forever , 

he still dominates so much of our memories.

We laugh at our own selves at the huge appetite for life our parents have , compared to so little they had and here we are not even 40 years and tired of life !!. 

And then I look at some 20 year olds and well it kind of feels better.

Coming Out ...?

No one can tell what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. 
No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. 
There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side. Or you don't. 
Stephen King
And so I write again ,

for I looked at my blog , my older posts here and not here

and I was in a sense of wonder yesterday night.
Was it me that wrote these so passionate about the life's trivialities ?
And then I realize how life's been playing the part and well what I have become.
I did wish to write it out believing that old adage of flushing out the pain
in words but never did it work, could not just work myself up to put it words.
But today morning in Pinterest when I come across this quote I told myself may be I am coming out on the other side.

I cannot write on it - what was that blue section from 2012 to well ongoing exactly -its hazy and its all in the mind
- the fears, the pain , the regrets , the way life overwhelmed me.
They reside still in mind refuse to be tamed and I do fear I may never come out

and even if I do its on the other side.

From someone agnostic I have tend towards the beleivers , never was against it but its become more pronounced .
From someone who accorded ones own initiative a fair share for success I tend to lean more on fate's wily ways
Its not a side I was ever against but its not a side I believed I would be on

I have walked onto that path by choice only that there was no map and I ended here.

Its not that I feel wrong just that it defeated my worldview bringing me to a point where I

Amazed at my own past self , sad at what I seem to have lost
but then I guess in the end everyone is the same