Its funny when things repeat themselves.You start questioning yourself.Same i guess is happening to me.Last job what really blew the lid on my patience started with a leave and now i see it happening again.

Well after 3 months of non stop work if you want a week a whole 5 days off it is met with a formal letter.
Please apply in the following format...blah blah.
yeah we all know the format....but what got to me what the damn line.
Reason for leave:(Please be specific)....
why must i be specific...what the heck do they have to do with what i do on my leave.
Its a leave i have not a favor.The sad part in my oraganisation is they neither encash leaves nor carry forward which will at least make some people happy if not me.
But they are sanctioned on a need basis ...pray what is the need.
So you have to fall sick or have an accident basically to get a leave and they talk about positivity.
Kindly provide your landline if roaming not available on mobile ....good god i never knew normal employees could be this important. No investigating agencies keep tabs like this.
yeah we treat all our employees like family....hmm good just as parents keep tab so do we..good idea i guess.
For a project which gets work on a continual basis from a US client when will there be no emergency never ...
So i guess i never get even half my leaves. Now i regret not acting really sick and taking 1 day here 1 day there leave.So whole day i am trying to cook up a reason.... a specific reason which can make me eligible whoa....
I stay at home....so no excuse for meeting up family...the advantage for hostelites.
Rest....what rest last 3 months we never asked you to work a single weekend what mercy really.and anyway that excuse means you be called up anytime.
So what do i do i feel irritated to get into such murky stuff. I certainly decide enough is enough now is the time to start hunting again ...its a tedious process for someone like me but then i work to lead a better life.May be the next company too
will turn out the same but then "umeed pe duniya tiki hai"

What i don’t understand is why do companies actually the managers try to get into and hold sway over the employees personal life.

I was remembering an interaction with my previous manager. He really was hopeless unlike the current who is confused and harassed soul.There we had double pay for overtime so am extra day meant less work more money.Still i never opted.
He said see u will get this many bucks... and all i asked was fine but when am i gonna get time to spend them?
He had that blank irritated face and said.. wellll hmmmm ah...." when you take leave".
I could only laugh.
But then it was different...that was a job not a part of career so i really put my foot down...and also being a established org they had a better HR policy which i could use to point out stuff.
Here in this organization they are planning and replanning HR policy but moot point is....... we consider all employees family.ahem
whoever said it said it right.
“You slog eight hours so that you can slog fifteen hours in future”.

This whole issue i believe stems from the fact that indians like to say work hard..which in itself is bad...as it proves you need to work hard to get simple work done .
Also work hard also translates to work long hours ........ at least act that stuff out.
One of my colleague also was frustrated saying well i cant leave at 11 in night so i try to finish work fast and leave but my manager points out at how hard the guys work who
come in at 9 have breakfast till 10...play T.T till 11..chat at the workstation till 12...have lunch ...have a smoke..have a tea...have a T.T and finally work really hard till 1 or 2 in the night.The moot point is they are available round the clock for the boss....which is what is appreciable esp now that we have become servants of the great US consumer/client.
The common joke among guys in our team is this....
One guy says ....”damn i am sick of this work”..all others tease
“hey chap you are not married...you can work a lil late”.
The culture of an organisation is definitely spoiled by these hostelites who have no other stuff to go to so they simply love to be where you have internet, AC and food and timepass company.

What else as if all this is not enough i got myself into more trouble by opting for a training against the wishes of my manager .So now i am holed up in that damn cubicle 8 to 8 and there is ever unpleasant look on my managers face.Its a training useless for the project is the reason given ..... and that makes me break my silence and a smooth relationship.I say it with a smile.....“i am not gonna be here for ever”.everyone gets their pound of flesh i guess and so its scheduled early morning ...my nemesis is getting up early but i drag myself right on time...and there is a look on the face..."normal days 9.30 is too early and now u come right at 8. ok "

God i dont know what to think of myself..there are some friends who do have to stay back till late night 11 or 1 and so should i say i am cribbing for all wrong reasons...I have no qualms i am lazy actually thats why i do things fast so i can relax also unlike others who are so eager and ambitious i simply take no extra responsibilty or initiative as my manager keeps hinting perenially......I simply dont understand why people slog to get more money and position and what are they gonnna do with it anyway if they don’t have time.

Thats why my blog line was/is always
“what is life if full of care
No time to stand and stare”.